So, for the past month (since the unfortunate episode) I've been attempting mindfulness meditation as a means of improving my state of mind, decreasing stress and depression, and generally lessening the urge to crawl in a hole. I suppose, more specifically, I've been practicing mindfulness-based cognitive behavioral therapy. It's supposed to help with the ability to become aware of incoming thoughts/feelings and accept them without attaching or reacting to them. Basically, it's the zen art of turning nasty thoughts and feelings into water off a duck's back.
And here's the thing-
IT'S ACTUALLY HELPING!
I have to admit that, initially, I didn't expect much other than possibly being a little calmer and more content while meditating/doing the mindfulness stuff. However (color me surprised), I've been noticing an overall improvement in my mood as well as my ability to prevent 'unpleasant stimuli' from pushing me over the edge.
I'm very interested now in seeing if there is a therapist around here that is experienced in Dialectical Behavior Therapy. It apparently has 'mindfulness' as the core and was developed for treating people with BPD. This is a long shot, since no one has ever commented on this blog, but anybody out there know anything about Dialectical Behavior Therapy? Good? Bad?